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HELLO


hi

well Siwon you do CK proud

cutie pie or what? ♥

boy oh boy do i like asian men ^^
just a very very minor exhibit


anyways, so i've finally left the dorm for good. and um, i dont know. i wasn't all that sad compared to the other girls. I was sad but... I didn't cry a fucking river. everyone else was like weeping and sobbing in between hugs, "take care, i love you, i miss you, when will i see you again?, call me okay?"

so we had this event in the dorm, our lovely wardens were there, we made a line and shook hands with them, gave them a hug. Aida was standing next to me and idk what I was doing, just spaced out i guess. and she hit me, "I HATE THIS!"
i'm like "huh? what?" kinda scared tbqh
and she's got tears in her eyes, "they're all crying!"
so i looked at the girls and true enough, they were crying. I was like.... "what the fuck."
and Aida handed me a tissue, "in case you start crying too."

i took it, thankful. but... i didn't cry.
and then i thought, 'something's wrong with me.'




awkward as fuck and i was hugging them and their faces were all tear stained and it was even worse for those who wore mascara, like... yeah you know. and they're all like stuttering, "Loui, awww b-bye loui, g-good luck y-yeah?"
i'm like "YOU TOO, take care! ^^"
and they just gave me that WTF look after we broke from the hug, probably from how cheerful i sounded.


another thing too, the other day Alex was like "Loui you should do the farewell speech since I'm gonna cry! you can do it well cos you're kinda heartless ^^"
......idk whether to get mad at him or be ashamed of myself.




i feel awful right now though idk.
i hope they know i'll miss them so much and that the times we've had conversations and everything; i treasure them, i really do. dorm life has taught me so many things and i have them to thank for. like, of course I wish you the best. will i see them again? I don't know. but one thing's for sure, I won't forget them. so yeah /shrugs/
haha none of them know of this blog and so these are the things that will forever be left unsaid (like, orally) and will go unnoticed.
it's okay, i wish them well nonetheless.