help

lol just deleted a post i made because i decided i wasn't gonna signify nor dignify something that was not even true about me. a rumour made shall die if no one speculates about it further. stupid me, why did i not realize sooner haha.

anyway!
so i am back to being unemployed!

My gig was meant to last for only three weeks and yesterday was my last day on the job. I was at ICC running the booth a colleague. it was fun, kekeke i'm too lazy to go into details but yeah! Um, i think highlight from the past two days was that I got to see Jonathan! :D I mean, i didn't mean to see him haha. He was like "Good seeing you blablabla I'll come back so we could have a smoke or something?" I was more than excited!

Then he left & I went to get something to eat with my mom (we work together, if this doesn't make sense) at this other hall. When I came back, my colleague was like "This guy was looking for youuuuu~" and she had this look on her face like ICWUDT.
And my mom's like "Oh, that must be Jonathan."
Colleague : he told me his name, it WAS Jonathan. Oooh, your mom knows him?
me : yeah... Oh he came?
Colleague : yes he diiiiid~ He said he'll be back in 10 minutes to come find you again~~~~ /sleazy smile/
me : ooookay? cool
colleague : so Ayesha (that's my mom's name) You approve of this Jonathan hmm?
Mom : well, Jonathan's dad is our company's lawyer!
colleague : *pokes me* ooohhh, son of a lawyer~~? wow, Louisa~~~
Me : ......uh


and then later after my mom left, so it was just us two, she asked me lotsa question about Jon haha. It went like this.
Her : so is Jonathan your boyfriend?
Me : haha no.
Her : He's almost your boyfriend?
Me: no.
Her: okay, so you like each other?
Me : no.
Her : he likes you.
Me : no.
Her : you like him.
Me : ..................no.
Her: AH! but you hesitated there!
Me : it's cause you're funny! No, we're just long time friends.
Her : ah but that could evolve into ...you know~~~


so yeah. she's so funny lol but this is the second time she's made it awkward for me to respond. the first time was at Rizqun, Ervin came by on both days of our education fair and she said some stff that made it awkward for us to further the conversation LOL. I'm not mad btw, she's just cute with her assumptions ^^

back to the main topic, and what with the education fair slapping me across the face with people who are asking "how do I apply for scholarship to Canada?", I am feeling demotivated. I may have gotten 280 points from my A and AS level exams which is a little more than enough than the required 260 points to apply for scholarship... but apparently, seemingly, my English AS results are insignificant. So that deduces me to a college graduate with 220 points. Hence I'm 40 points short if I ever wanna apply for scholarship. Life's a bitch when there's a pothole like this. Still tryna laugh it off, but I can't really find anything that's funny about it.

Friend tell me I could still use my English AS results where its applicable, depending on the university. So I emailed this uni I'm interested in, asking if they'd take English AS into account for the tariff points. No reply, after three or four days and counting. I went to the UBD open day thing, and was onlyinterested in Sociology-Anthropology, which isn't even what I had in mind. Like, it was the closest thing to social sciences but it's not my exact desired course. I don't know... I'm losing hope and faith.

I could use a hug right now tbh haha. /SIGH/ to make things worse, I won't be getting my pay until like the first week of March so fuck I am broke. Then, when i do get the money, I'll have to use a fraction of it (about $435?) to pay for my driving lessons & exams (unless my mom was just joking and she'd pay for it). And then, remember when I said IDGAF about Valentine's day? Well fuck, some people are just too cute together and I was just alone lol looking at pictures and videos of Jay Park & SHINee and Yuri LOL. And tumblr wasn't being helpful neither, all these blog posts about how beautiful the day was regardless if it was a hurricane or blizzard because it was valentine's day and "me & my boyfriend have plans" and whatnot.

.....i sound butthurt, don't I? LOL


moving on, I'm looking for a job. Suggestions?

yo

Yuri's Solo

i don't know what to say. I was just mesmerized by the fact that her body is just bangin and the choreography is ....amazing for her. Althought I would like to cover her up a bit because everyone's watching and girl, you just gotta wait and show me this in the bedroom okay?

/sigh/

okay enough. but god she's so hot.

oh, and you're welcome! ;)

v-day

sup yall. so i went to school this morning, hoping i could see some teacher who works in the higher education unit but hah she's not around. i'm not surprised ^^ whatever, this thing has been just a slowwwww process idek. but i feel comforted by the fact that it's not because of my negligence, it is because of other things. :) so yeah, idk.

anyways, it's valentine's day!
but it feels like any other passing day, to be perfectly honest. maybe because I have no boyfriend or that 'special someone' to spend it with haha. I don't mind at all though, I've been spending V-day alone for the past... how many years. But this year, especially, ...I hold no regard to this day being Valentine's day. like it hasn't even hit me haha. all i did that is even reated to v-day is getting this drink at coffee bean, this ...strawberry white chocolate whatever that is on promotion for valentine's day. you get a 10% discount if you buy two of these drinks, one for you and one for your date. but since I didn't bring a date, i don't get the discount. >_>


but it tastes good so it's okay.

people i wanna greet valentine's day to:

Jinki! haha I'm gonna assume that his aunt or something. gosh he's so cute ^^

and Jonghyun kjbdvaufguvga
a hug from you must feel like being wrapped around a ...just...
fuck, it must feel nice.

and Jay!!!
^^ hehe congrats and your newly released full album New Breed.
I am very happy & proud. Know Your Name has been on repeat and i love it.

wonder what my friends are up to today.
bet Megan's gonna spend it with her boyfriend, but they seem to be always cute whether it's valentine's or not!
Amanda's probably going out. Or studying, idk....
My malay friends are probably not doing anything since it's like against... the religion or something.


as for me, my mom just texted & apparently, i'll be going out for dinner with my family tonight. how cools is dat.

Happy Valentine's Day!
take care!

Jay Park (Take HD) - 'Know Your Name (Acoustic Version Blue)'

at first I thought the girl was a dude, during the first few seconds of the vid LOL
but damn, I just wanna know your name :')

henry

if there's a waiter that looks like this somewhere in town, damn. I'd declare that restaurant my favourite. keke yeah it's Henry Lau.

I was involved in this Canada Education Fair held last Tuesday and I had to prepare slides for quiz, just to entertain the massive crowd of students who would come. And I had to look for questions that were Canada-related. I was just like WTF MAN how do I do thissss. Fortunately... Henry here is a Canadian who is a part of Super Junior. I've had dibs on him the second I heard him speak English. And he's friends with Amber too so I'm just like, YEAH.
I was so happy to be able to include him in the quiz! ^^
and just as I expected, girls were squealing and rushing to answer "Who is the only member of Super Junior who is from Canada?"
screaming girls went "HENRYYYYY!!!"
and I'm like nodding like a proud momma haha


ANYWAY

that;s me this morning, tryna go to school to get my result slip. I was in such a rush because I overslept and yeah, idk. My hair's such a mess LOL. I am a mess :/ but meh, it's how I look like this morning nonetheless. I'm supposed to wear smart casual so I just... grabbed a t-shirt and wore a blazer over it. LOL paired it with jeans and flats.

OH! my results!
haha when the text came (I registered for the SMS results thing), I was in the shower. haha when I got out, my phone had 3 texts. But long story short, I saw the one text which contained my results.
Hist = C
Soc = *
Math = U

I was just chill. :) These were the exact results I predicted, except for Sociology. I paused for a sec, wondering what the fuck is this asterisk, like what does it mean? Did I fail? But no I can't have failed it, otherwise it'd be a U. But yeah, I replied my two other texts.

I had to tell my parents but I was still ...yknow, just with a towel wrapped around me haha. So I put on some clothes and went outside, took my time in doing so. Showed my parents the text and they're like "What's that... thing? For sociology. What is that?"
Me : i don't know. My friend says its an A-star.
Mom : ...that's a good thing, right?
Me : I think. I mean, if it's an A-star, it is a good thing. Just... it's an asterisk.
Dad : so... can you go to uni?
Me: I don't know.
Mom: ....Are you happy?
Me : /snort/ assuming that asterisk is an A star, then yes. I am happy.
Dad: mmkay, good then.
Mom: awww I'm proud, good job! /hugs me/

/sigh/ i love how relaxed it all was that night. :)





anyway, idk how to do the hecas thing because the site is being stupid :( how can it tell me that there is no intake currently? Like, they tell me I'm supposed to send in the hecas form within three working days after the results are announced but then now, the site says there are no current intakes.
WHAT IN FUCK'S NAME.
ARE YOU OR ARE YOU NOT DOING THE HECAS THING
/rolls eyes/ i don't know, incompetent.

hi again

lol we all have overdue photos right?

So I’m employed once again ^^

Um, it’s my third day yesterday. I think I like it, it’s just a little... Um, idk what’s the word. Like, it’s more pressuring compared to my previous job. LOL before, I was just a waitress, waiting tables and life’s biggest worry was to not fall or trip or spill something or drop anything or get the wrong order or face a bitchy customer. But life is actually bigger than that haha! I now have a new set of worries, bearing bigger consequences if I do mess up. Hence the pressure. /sigh/ I write down new notes every single time there’s something new that I have to do/remember. I am actually learning to be organized and how to distinguish priorities; LOL WHICH ARE NOT REALLY MY MAIN TRAITS >_> I’VE BEEN THE ‘GO WITH THE FLOW’ KIND OF GIRL FOR SO LONG so this is all new and Lord help me.

But anyway, the hours are better and the pay is like ...six times more than my previous job. So I’m looking forward to pay day ^^ My boss is nice, really talkative and nice. He treated me for lunch on my first day :D I’m only gonna be at this job for three weeks though because they only need help for this education fair they’re holding in 4 days’ time. I am going to see my juniors from college at this education fair >_>

I hope by the time this job ends, I’ll have like two weeks of nothing to do~ And hopefully, fingers crossed, I’ll get a call or e-mail from this other job I applied to. Or else... Well, it’s not a big deal if I don’t get another job because then, I’d have time to get my license! ^^ Can’t believe I actually let it be put off for so long haha I was so keen on getting my license! Like, pre-exams all I could think of was “During the long holidays, I am so gonna take driving lessons. I am so getting my license ASAP.” LOL but now I’m just like “I need a fucking job, who cares about driving?!”

But yeah I’ve been having lessons with my dad, the last time we went, he actually told me to go fast. And I was more than willing to oblige ^^ I’ve gotten so much better but it’s just auto though, idk peanuts about driving a manual L

But you know, there’s this peculiar thing. My mom has changed. Haha ever since I got a job, she’s been making me pay for my own expenditure. Like we went shopping and I wanted to get these nail polish things and she paid first. When we got in the car, she’s like “You owe me $4.50 for that nail polish.” She reminded me again when we got home. Then when I found out I got this second job, I had t buy office clothes, right? She’s like “Okay, go shopping around town. Go yourself, you received your salary already right?”

I’m just like “You mean... I have to buy my own stuff, by myself? On my own?”

She shrugs and goes, “Yeah. You have money right?”

So yeah, I don't mind it I guess. Asdfghjkl when I was a kid, I was so excited to be 18 and legal. Now, all I wish I could do is cuddle amongst my pillows and sheets, watch Monsters Inc., eat ice cream and don’t know what a cell phone or laptop is and all there is to worry about is getting 2+2 correct.

i'm blabbering. haha >_>

Anyway, I’ve been listening to Drake’s ‘Shot For Me’ song quite a lot these days. So I’ll leave you with a quote from that song to end my post~

May your neighbours respect you
troubles neglect you
angels protect you
and heaven accept you.

omg!

Which SHINee Member are you?

Are you similar to… Onew (Lee Jinki) ?

[x] You like to eat fried chicken.

[x] You’re very clumsy.

[x] You hit your head on things a lot.

[ ] You try to be funny or witty but people almost never laugh.

[ ] You have a very bright smile.

[ ] You don’t like getting too close to kids or animals.

[ ] You are a leader.

[x] You don’t seem like something that you really are.

[x] You don’t like your actual name.

[ ] You are somehow like tofu.

Total: 5/10

__________________________

Jonghyun (Kim Jonghyun) ?

[x] You’re very frank.

[x] You want attention from someone but you never really get it.

[x] You know how to celebrate by yourself.

[ ] You can sing very well.

[x] You’re short.

[x] You seem like a leader type, but you aren’t.

[x] A close friend who is younger than you is taller than you.

[x] You like pulling pranks.

[ ] You’re very…guy or tomboyish

[x] You can wake up early.

Total: 8/10

__________________________

Key (Kim Kibum) ?

[ ] You are so much like a mom.

[ ] You nag a lot.

[ ] You have many different talents.

[x] You hate to lose.

[x] You don’t like your old, baby pictures.

[x] You’re afraid of heights.

[x] You’re a blunt person.

[x] You are good at cooking and household activities.

[ ] You can DANCE.

[x] You’re a sort of tsundere. (Meaning cold/cool an arrogant on the outside, but generous and hearted inside )

Total: 6/10

__________________________

Minho (Choi Minho) ?

[ ] You’re very sporty.

[x] You’re very competitive.

[ ] You’re tall.

[x] Some people think you can’t do anything, but you can.

[ ] You’re great with kids.

[x] You will do anything for the person you love.

[ ] You don’t like talking too much.

[ ] You’re generally quiet.

[ ] You like soccer.

[x] You’re charming/charismatic. (LOL)

Total: 4/10

__________________________

Taemin (Lee Taemin) ?

[ ] You are the youngest of your siblings or group of friends.

[x] You like ice cream.

[x] You’re very innocent.

[x] You’re child-like.

[x] You are pretty shy.

[ ] You are/were bullied somehow.

[ ] You use your cuteness to get what you want.

[ ] You are a big fan of Michael Jackson.

[x] You absolutely hate bugs.

[ ] You aren’t very good at cooking.

Total: 5/10

yay Jonghyun! ^^

unemployed

Here's Daniel Jerome.
I've been watching his vids a lot recently, he's really a good dancer. (i like bboy dances, not that i can do it myself) He thinks his freestyle sucks lol I beg to differ! He does his own choreography and teaches other youngsters at this studio; it's really nice. He's friends with Jay Park too btw keke, their whole bboy thing. ^^ AOM!

a few days ago I had this conversation with my boss. I stepped in his office and said, "You have a
minute?" He was sending e-mails and such, idk, on the computer, "Yes, Louisa, I do~"

Then the phone rang and he rolled his eyes, "Wait ah~"
Me : Sure thing.
WHen the phone call was over, he looked at me with a smile, "Yes, Loui?"
Me : I want to resign...? ^^
Him : /leans back in chair/ but why?? you hate the environment here?? :(
Me : no, I like it here! I just... got this other job offer.
Him : Where at?
Me : At uh ______.
Him : /gasp/ oh okay, okay. Well that's really good, Loui! When's your last day gonna be?
Me : I was hoping tomorrow?
Him : Ah /laughs/ Loui, I need your help.
Me : Yeah you need me til Sunday right?
Him : Yes! Can?
Me : Yeah sure, I considered that. They've got that big function thing, sure I'll help.
Him : Good! I'll give you morning shift, okay? So you can leave early.
Me : Thank you, sir!
Him : Thank you, Louisa. Thanks for your help. Good luck with everything ah~

I said thanks and left his office. I wanted to just :( he's so nice omg. The way he calls me Loui is just awwwww so cutie pie~ OTL

:D so yesterday was my last day at work!
i had the morning shift yesterday, diva boss gave me the morning shift so i could leave early keke. I left the house at 6am and along the way, my mom was like "Is that your friend?" & I looked up to see one of my coworkers! ^^ because their staff house was nearby so I gave her a ride to work too. and um, yeah it was such a relaxing day because it was Sunday and people don't usually go there to dine apparently. but I was down with a horrible fever so it was kinda horrible, I only got through the day because I was looking forward to leaving.

So I was doing my closing, counting the sales and saving the reports and everything when my mom called saying she was there to pick me up already. I finished everything and said bye to the girl with me. And she's like byebye~ ^^ And I walked away and the woman who had been wokring there for 14 years (aka 'bitch' from my previous entry) was there so i said bye. and she held my hand, going on about what a pleasure it was to work with me & how nice I was, how understanding and easy it was to work with me blablabla. I looked at her in the eye the entire time, trying to smile. And then I just said, "Okay... bye bye."
I just suck at goodbyes LOL.

I don't hate her anymore, btw. I figured I'd be wasting my time holding a grudge or even keeping an ounce of bitterness against her. She's sort of nice, she hasn't scold me or anything so it's okay. She likes doing work on her own without any help so I basically keep out of her hair. /shrugs/ yeah.

Anyway, thus I am unemployed and gosh nothing felt better when I walked out that backdoor and untuck my shirt.

I got this other job, and I start on the 1st of February. I kinda like this idea of job-hopping like a bunny.
keke but now I need to shop for office clothes, damn

hi

so there's me and my man of a sister >.>

hello again!
happy lunar new year!

well it wasn't exactly a happy one for me haha.
I went to KB, stayed there for a couple of nights after successfully asking repeatedly for an off day for CNY from my supervisor. He's a nice guy so gave me a whole day off. ^^ Anyway, so I stayed at a hotel in KB and I was supposed to sneak out to see Amanda the first night but I was so tired and the door was quite noisy to shut from outside so no. But the second night I got my sister to close the door for me from the inside and not a sound was heard keke. So I hung out with Amanda and Lorin, and then later we went to get Mike & Jonathan so it was us five hanging around a random part of KB. It was like 1.30 in the morning? So this policemen found us and told us to leave and go home. We left but we didn't go home >.>

Got back up to the hotel at about 3am and went right to sleep. It was probably the best part of my CNY haha. I didn't even intend to see any of my friends tbqh, but yeah! When something happens and you had zero expectations, life looks so good.







Okay, so what else has happened?
Oh, I am so sick of my job already. Going to quit by the end of this month and I am looking forward to it so much. I fell down last night on my shift! I was gonna get this person's order in the kitchen but the floor was wet. I was like "Fuck, if I fell down that'd be bad. be careful where you step, Loui." /snort/ and then I fell. And the chef ran to me and helped me up, he's so nice ^^ he didn't even laugh, he was all "Are you okay? damn that floor for being wet!"
I'm like "It's okay, I'm okay thanks!"

But I have bruises from it lol my ass hurt so much last night, it wasn't even something to laugh at. (Well I laughed a little when I kept clutching my ass. I mean, if people saw what I was doing, they must think I'm... idk, perverted or horny or something haha) But it hurt :(

And I heard results are coming out next week. I am on the edge of breaking down. Srsly, if I just spend a little time thinking about it like I am now... My heart just races. All these "what if" questions come to mind and I have no answer for any of them D: /whimpers/ /rolls on the ground/